Too Late to Apologize

Gooday!

Today's subject will be apologizing.

Sometimes it can be really hard to apologize, especially if you've done something you know is wrong.

It might've been something really bad, like committing a crime, or something as simple as said a bad word.

Those three words, "I am sorry", hold too much power to be spread around just like that. It will be difficult to be truly sorry, and most times those true times are the ones gone to waste.

You might think, "If I apologize now, it will only look like I'm just trying to make it up."

But isn't that the point? Most of us are most likely afraid of apologizing for a few reasons.

First, you might not get the response from the apology you expected. They might just dislike you more for toadying.

Second, you might feel too vulnerable, especially if you think number one is likely to happen.

But enough of that, I'm not trying to make up excuses for those who might be too afraid to apologize.

The point of this is: we all have regrets, we all will want to apologize at some points of life. It is a great bliss to learn how to fix feelings gotten hurt or personal damage.

I don't want to make this any longer.

I'm sorry. I really am.

Alouette ette ette~

Promise this

If I die before I wake, oh

Promise this

Take the time to say your grace

On your knees you pray for me

Promise this

Be the last to kiss my lips

Hehe. Liked it? Not mine, Cheryl Cole's Promise This.

It can be pretty catchy... Aaloettoettooettoo. Um, okay. Sorry.

So, today's been a stupid day! I had my physic test, I went to get gym... I did a tougher work out than usually, yet I felt like I hadn't done anything. How boring.

Then I walked home in a terrible blizzard, listened to some music, read some Donald Duck and then walked some more outside, thank God it wasn't snowing tho. And now I'm back home!

Or was that this day? I can't remember exactly what happened today, oh well.

A happy thing that happened yesterday night: my friend from Holland sent a text to me!

I was almost sleeping and thought, "Who the hell is texting me at this hour?" I thought it was a friend of mine since I had just finished texting to her, so I wondered what had happened!

And then I got excited when I saw it was from the hollandish person!

I could go to sleep with a tranquil mind since nothing bad had happened.

That reminds me of something I was supposed to write about last time.

When I mentioned to a friend I was writing a blog, he was kinda ... disappointed.

He doesn't like any kind of social media (which is ironic, really, he knows why), so he is against blogs, Facebook and... what else?

Anyway, I asked why doesn't he like them, and he asked why do I write a blog. I told him cause I want to train my English for my upcoming tests and he replied... Why don't you write a diary then?

I don't know, really. I guess this IS a bit like a diary, a public one. Of course I'm not going to write any deeply personal Stuff, but I do write about other things than just my daily routine.

And writing a diary would feel kinda... vain. Since you won't do anything with it afterwards. Maybe reading it after ten years, but still. I have to admit it keeps it interesting to not know who might read this. Or what others might think, of course it's always there, the presence of someone... watching.

I'm having problems with Spotify. Rihanna's new album should be out by now, but I can't seem to get it work!

I really want to listen to it already, hopefully they'll fix it sooner rather than later.

There are many songs with the words "For the first time" in them.

I have two different examples, Mine by Taylor Swift and For the First Time by the Script.

Maybe it's becoming a phrase that everyone uses? That would be boring.

What I noticed when I listened to United States of Pop 2009 is that there are A LOT of "downs" in songs written nowadays. It's scary! Down down down down. Down here, down there. Down now, down later!

Different meanings, different songs and singers and styles. Yet they all use the same word!

I'd like to regard my memory.

It sucks. I can remember basically nothing! Dates are fuzzy, I can only remember my own and my brother's birthdays. I have to think really long to know how old someone is (family members) and yeah, birth dates are extraterrestrial to me.

And everything else is forgettable in my mind, easily. Meetings, special events, things I should do, preparations! Everything!

I'm a reliable person, but because of my memory you shouldn't trust me with things that need remembering (which means you must tell me all your secrets! I won't remember them anyway).

What was I going to say again? Hm.

I got compliments today! I was happy to receive them, since I don't usually get them.

Hopefully I can fulfill expectations next year, regardless of how much I get insulted/complimented. Sometimes compliments can be bad, they make you think you're good enough to not need to work on your skills. And that is dangerous!

Why do I feel like I always have the same subjects?

Restrictions

Good morning!

I've been really hungry today, eaten more than I have in a while.

Guess it's cause of the gym! Harr.

Anyway, I heard at the gym that Hurts is coming to Finland on January and I was excited!

I couldn't wait to get home and check the details.

So to my amusement, when I went to their site and looked it up, the first comment gave it all away: "It's for over 18 years old, not fair!". I have to agree with her! Why??

Oh well, I'll try to get there, either by using my natural charm or by getting some ID!

Everything has weird age restrictions nowdays. I tried to go see Saw 3D and surprise, they asked for my ID. I was like, what the heck, since when do you as IDs for a movie? She explained they're very strict about that, but to me it was her first day at work and she was overstrict.

I also heard Imogen Heap is performing the day after tomorrow, at the same place! It's sold out and oh well, I wouldn't have the age for that either. /me cries.

From sad to annoying, exam week! Yayyy.

I'll start studying tomorrow, hopefully. I'll have to study physics the most, since I've skipped a few lessons. Overall, it seems okay and I (WHOA!) even like the subject. Nuclear stuff, atoms and protons and electrons!

Then I have to study maths, I definitely won't get the 3 extra points, but maybe one if I'm lucky.

Chemistry is a lost cause, I learnt today that all my methods are WRONG! They give me the right answer but it seems I always make up new methods, too bad I can't get a Nobel prize that way!

Blah blah, school sucks.

I saw someone who looked like a celebrity today!

I was about to talk about Pokemon, but I'll just end up mentioning it ;)

I love the original Pokemon, the new stuff sucks.

Today when I woke up and left home, I wanted to listen to music.

But NO. My mp3 had no battery, seems I "accidentally" left it playing whole night.

So a musicless day for me, heh. Till I came back home! Hah.

Oh, let's talk about Vampire Diaries. Gee, my topics are not getting better, are they?

The plot is great, so many questions that need answers and the good thing about VD is, that most of the time they WILL get answered.

Nothing more since otherwise I'll spoil it!

Ahh, now I remember what I forgot to talk about yesterday. Nurse Jackie!

It's one of the best TV shows I've seen for a while. It's always so entertaining and funny. The characters are diverse and the plot is more or less worth the time.

I specially like the British doctor and the nosy nurse student! Both are so funny! The doctor is just so selfish, but in a way shows her love to people around. And the nurse is her opposite, she's so selfless and shows her love a bit TOO much, to other people's annoyance.

The show makes you think Jackie's a saint, and while you think that, she turns around the corner and takes some drugs. Or goes to the drug dealer and fucks him, while her husband waits for her at home with her kids. Somehow you don't dispise her, even though you should! I mean she's the incarnation of lust and drug addiction. But the way she does everything she can to help the unfortunate and the way she loves her husband, children and lover! You can't find no match.

And that's all for today.

I'll let you know how my project (ID!) evolves.

PS. Tuesdays are boring and I haven't watched Youtube in ages.

This is the Truth!

Well well hello hello.

It's been a while since we last spoke, how are you? Fine? I kinda knew that!

Are you surprised I'm back? No? You had completely forgotten this place? How could you! This is where we make history!

Enough of monologues, let's get to the point.

I'm back to business just for the sheer cold (hehe) fact that our matriculation examinations will start soon.

Very soon.

I thought about it yesterday. I should start going through the math books to actually have the time to revise everything. Same thing goes with chemistry and physics.

The one subject I'm worried about is English, and chemistry a bit as well. Why, because they are my solve chances for a good grade. I'll totally screw up physics and I just don't stand a chance in maths compared to the whole population of newbies.

Hehe, forgot to mention why I'm worried about English and chemistry (I'm writing this after 1st proofread). It's because there are chemistry based schools which will automatically take all the good grades, leaving average Does like me an "okay" grade. And English is just stupid cause I'll screw up!

Let's see, E=mc², yep, I know it all now.

I love my friend, she's always doing weird stuff and making me laugh!

Oh well, they all are too funny, actually. Sometimes I get worried, but then again, I'm not that much better myself.

Short chapter, I dunno why I even wrote that. It was improvised!

I've been listening to some REALLY mainstream-like music. Which means club music with strong basslines and pounding beats. They can be really fun to dance to (not that I do dance, ninjas don't dance!!).

But yeah, you get bored of them easily. Now I'm listening to This is a Potty (Tämä on totta) and more of the singer's songs. I don't know why tho, they're nice, soft and stuff.

I also listened to Coldplay, they so nice too. I love Fix Me and I was shocked when I noticed that song's from 2005! So old! And it still does well on lists (Spotify, hehe).

I'm taking a break from Hurts, but I could listen to them soon as well. Oh, I listened to Kate Nash's newest record, it was okay, nothing too memorable yet.

I like her British accent, specially since you can really hear it (unlike some bands for example Muse and Hurts, but it isn't necessarily bad, just my opinion and compared to Nash).

Oh, the church election thing.

There was this panel at our school where four candidates presented themselves. A guy and three more or less young women. All the women were okay, one was more talkative than the others.

But the guy. Oh God (no pun intended xD) he was annoying. He was really close-minded about everything. Female priesthood, NO. Same sex marriage, NO. The Bible, YES.

He said he will put his personal opinions aside AND SEARCH FOR THE ANSWER IN THE BIBLE.

Is he dumb? Has someone brainwashed him? After watching Da Vinci Code yesterday, he seems a bit like Silas.

Anyway, I heard today that he got the second most votes (in our electoral district, I think).

Whatever, I'm not part of this Evangelical Lutheran church, so I don't care how dumbass idiots the people in it are.

Enough of the blasphemy.

And I think that enough for today.

Maybe tomorrow something else, maybe the day after tomorrow, maybe in a week, maybe in a month, maybe the next hour.

Like a good book once said (Dorian Gray, can't remember the exact quote), being punctual is being the slave of time!

Icky Movies

Okay. First things first. You might not enjoy this blog, since I'm only writing because I need to share this terrible experience.

It is called a movie. I do not want to call it a horror movie, since it's not scary. I do not want to call it a splatter since it's not. It's not a psychological thriller either.

Before I say the name of the movie, you must promise me you will not watch it unless you are 100% sure you want to feel bad for the rest week.

If you don't know me you might think I'm just a wussy. I'm not. I enjoy scary movies and a bit (or a lot) of blood is not a problem for me. This movie does not contain bloody scenes (obviously some, but it is not the blood or violence that makes it disgusting), at least not to the point I could watch it.

Beware since from now on, there will be spoilers and spoilers only. At least to the point I got watching this film. Which was more than enough.

The movie stars boring, full of clichés that annoyed me. A man got kidnapped while he was taking a shit (well, not this part. I was disgusted at this point since I had read a bit about the plot, nevertheless I thought I could take it).

Then they show these girls who are going for a road trip. They are young and stupid (in my opinion). They get lost in the middle of nowhere (cliché #1) in the middle of the night (#2) and they get a flat tire (#3). Yes, I am going to count the clichés just to show you how even ridiculous starts can lead to a sick movie. Then they wait in the car and a man appears. He doesn't speak English so he speaks whatever gibberish (didn't really care, probably... German? Hungarian?) and it turns out he just wanted to fuck those girls. Move on.

The girls decide to go look for help (#4). They find a house (#5) and they get excited and they think they're gonna get saved (#6). They ring the bell and a creepy man opens but they think he will help them (#7)! The man tricks the girls to drink drugged water (#8) and one is strong enough to try to escape (#9). The man gets hold of the girl easily and gives her some tranquilizer.

The girls wake up tied in a medical bed and they start screaming. Blah blah. The crazy man kills the man he captured taking a shit just because the crazy man thinks he doesn't fit the picture.

He replaces him with a Chinese/Japanese guy.

Now, this is where the most gross, disgusting, foul and GROSS part starts.

Why, now, when he's actually captured them all? Does one of them escape and a scary hide and seek game start? Well yes (#10, let's stop here). But that happens after the most gross part (at least to the point I watched it).

The crazy man tells he's a renowned surgeon specialized in separating conjoined twins. However his biggest dream is to create something new.

Again, at this point I advise to either just click the red cross to get away or... well, if you read till now you probably want to know.

He has had three Rottweilers which he conjoined to form "a dog" with one joined digesting system.

I'm suffering by just writing this. Terrible. Disgusting.

They did not survive. So now, this crazy son of a bitch fucking crazy bastard (excuse my language) wants to try it on humans, make "The Human Centipede".

He explains with extreme details how he is going to succeed in this. I do not want to tell how he's planning to do this, since it would break every bit of consumer protection.

I can say it involves the two channels of the digesting system.

Just........ don't watch it. Do NOT. Do NOT!! I warned you. DO NOT!!

And if you do, please don't tell me how it ended. I got to the part where the girl escaped from the pool and stands in front of the broken window. Had to stop there, I didn't want to see her get caught and performed some inhuman surgery on her.

This is a terrible blog. If you read this.. I'm sorry, I just had to let this out.

How did I learn about this movie? I saw a "make up tutorial" in which a girl explains how to look like one of the protagonists.

I did not understand what she was talking about but found it funny nevertheless. So I went and looked up the movie.

I wish I hadn't.

Exhausted!

Oh my God, I'm melting.

It's been so hot the whole day and believe me or not, the coolest I've been today was at the gym.

It seems there is some kind of ventilation, so it was like heaven! I'd love to go and live there.

Don't get me wrong, I love being warm, but sometimes enough is enough. We had over 35 degrees Celsius in the sun earlier, and about 25 in the shadows. That's like incredibly to much, compared to the numbers we've had before.

After gym I decided to make a small detour from my route home and I ended up riding my bike for thirty minutes! It was so much fun, I hope I do that another time.

What have I been doing for the whole little vacation we've had? You get three guesses. No, no and no. I've been doing maths. In two days I've managed to accumulate about six hours of calculating. It's been crazy but I've actually enjoyed it!

I feel like I've learnt the stuff but that's only because I've only gone as far as Riemann's integral. I bet that by the time I get to the volumes of stuff I'll be stupefied.

Other than that, I've just lazed, watched TV and eaten! How very boring. But I've needed it. I think I wrote that I've been very tired, so hopefully when school starts I'll be well rested!

Ha. How ironic that a friend of mine is abroad and the temperature over there is HALF of the temperature over here. She's complaining about it while I gloat about us melting.

To be honest, I'd be over there. Never mind the difference in temperature.

The only time I've been abroad was last summer when I took some summer school lessons in Spain. By judging the quality of our classes, I can only imagine what my friend is doing over there (hint hint, lots of partying involved).

Of course I've lived abroad for many years, but that's not the same thing as visiting another country! I'd love to visit various countries, and I hope that after our matriculation exams we'd go somewhere with my friends. It would be really awesome great super duper much fun! One has said that it's a great idea, now we just need to actually execute the idea when time comes!

I finished a jigsaw puzzle today! Well, it was actually assembled by my brothers' mostly. But still, I finished it! PS. It wasn't just one piece! It was like... 50 pieces? Out of 500? One tenth!

I've got nothing more to you! Hope you enjoy yourselves and have fun.

Good night.

Frustration

Heyhihello! Was that the band or did I get it wrong? I guess I won't know since I don't care!

Today's been a very interestingly weird day. I made my friend freak out by not understanding a mathematic picture. It was a bout a stupid, idiotic half-circle shaped stage. It had a bunch of triangles and right angles, so obviously I couldn't figure it out.

My friend tried and tried and ended up shouting-red. I ended up figuring it out after my friend had given up the explanations, too bad, she explained all that for nothing! I'm sorry for her blood pressure.

Also I avoided a minus on social studies. We had to think up the income and expenses of a country (Finland in this case). I hadn't remembered, so I just wrote up "Taxes" just before she started to check the homework. When she came and checked my notebook she looked at me a bit suspiciously. I told her I had thought about them but was too lazy to write them up. She kinda believed me; she didn't give me a plus but she didn't give me a minus either.

This reminds me I must finish my current task about finding out the budget of our city. Yikes.

After school I went to gran's to eat and do (some) homework. I also took the history homework paper thingy to my friend personally. The original idea was for me to type it for her in Facebook, but I was too lazy and I figured wouldn't be home until 6 pm. I thought she'd be too tired to do it then, so I thought, "What the heck, I'll just take it to her, won't take that long."

When my mission was completed I went to the gym, had an average workout. A bit more weight than I normally had used, just cause I was feeling bored. But still not as much as I've lifted sometimes. It's fun to try around, sometimes I get more exhausted than other times. Hence average.

Oh, I forgot we got to do our next years' schedules. I was nervous cause I feared I might not get all the courses I need, but seemingly I will be able to do it pretty easily. Nice-o.

At home I watched some Youtube and did other random net surfing until it was time for Cold Case. It had been a long time since I had last watched so it was cool to get into it once again.

I also learnt how easy it is for people to get frustrated. In just even five minutes you can get from happy and hopeful to frustrated and annoyed (and not talking about me this time).

I enjoyed the situation, meanwhile a friend of mine disliked it. It was, in a way, nice to console him. To try to give hope and let them know they're good, no matter how unlucky you might be sometimes.

By the way, I did try working on the scheme I talked about yesterday, but it turned out to be way too difficult. I hadn't processed the idea too much. I'll either try it again with a bit more planning or just plain type it (if even that).

I'm so glad there will be a sort of vacation starting from Thursday. I really need some rest. I have been waking up like at 6am for the past month (yes, even on weekends, don't ask why).

If I can't get my rest on that vacation time I might kill someone. Not. Still, I do want to relax! Please don't suggest anything for too early! I want to sleep till at least noon! Twelvish.

But indeed, it would be nice to do something, see some friends! I'll have to do schoolwork taking in count I'm way behind on schedule. I haven't really calculated maths, done chemistry or physics, nor studied history and social studies and neither have I tried to learn English and Swedish words!

Mmm I'm warm. Wonder if I could throw flames from my fists! Boom boom! Box! Boombox!

Everybody was kung fu fighting.

^ that was a demonstration of my free association. Don't ask. Yes, I am tired. It is twenty over ten. WAY too late for me. Sigh.

I'll just end this here, I'll give you the song I'm currently listening at: Bad Body Double, by none the less than Imogen Heap!

Remorse

It's been a long, long, long while, right?

I had already given up writing the blog, but something told me to do at least this final text, the closure.

Yet I know that after writing this I will have to write more, but I'll leave that to the future. Why not try the middle way and write every now and then? ;)

There's so much that has happened to me since I last blog (27.01.10). This means we have a lot to recap, but that doesn't mean I'm going to tell you everything right now. That would probably break the word limit, was there any or not. I've thought of making a small scheme of the most important events in this specific timespan. We'll see about that as well.

In other notes, I would like to inform you how my English project went. This was, after all, my English project.

As surprising it might be, I got a full 10 out of 10 for the project! I was extremely happy, since I also got a 10 from this course into my papers. I was almost jumping of joy. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read any of my blogs.

Unlike me, my friend has stuck to writing her blog. I can only admire her, since I know how much time she spends on it. It was way too much for me but I'll encourage her till the end!

Today, I showed mum Imogen Heap's pulling "Just For Now" live! She was mesmerized, which is no surprise. Immy is the best, to say the least. She's just so innovative, creative and original!

I can only thank to my friend for introducing me to her. It all began with Hide and Seek. It is a beautiful piece of art, which includes every possible feeling: sadness, joy, disappointment, bliss, anger, envy, love, hysteria... you name it, Immy can get it to your heart! I couldn't name all her songs that touch me inside, because I would have to write the name of each one of her songs!

My mum said whenever Immy's coming to Finland, she wants to go see her. Guess this means I'll go as well, with or against mum!

Besides this I've got nothing much to tell. It was a pretty fun day at school. Some of my friends said the day went by real slow, and it kinda did, yet I still had a blast! How weird.

On a side note, I've learnt (a long time ago) and confirmed that I am weak. I'll try my best to fix that, it's just so hard to accomplish being strong.

And now my heart started hurting, like for real! I hope I don't have a heart attack.

It would be really stupid to die writing this blog, these being my last words. How horrifying would that be?

If I noticed I'm having a heart attack, I'd probably try to type in some mentions about the most important people to me, as well as give out a couple of sensitive trivia, more known to some than others. Then with my last strength I'd hit the submit button ;)

On a second side-note, my favorite dubstep beat, Sierra Leona, by Mt Eden was deleted from Youtube!

Some bastard had complained about copyright or stuff and the video got removed. So let's talk about creativity and people using their imagination! It would've been different if the creator took all credit to himself, but he had specifically stated the original version and so on! Nitchpickers make me just so angry!

As the video I'll give you some Imogen Heap.

The song is called The Walk and it has no video. It doesn't need one. It is perfect with the black background, and I could stare at it whole, night, long.

Enjoy.

This just looks like the rerun

Good night, readers!

Today's a special day since it'll be the last day before I present my blog!

You read right, tomorrow, as the second of our English class, I'll tell about how and why and what I did for the project.

I feel a bit anxious because I have no idea of what I should say. Guess I'll just improvise, no point on making a plan and then forgetting everything! Anyway, if I wanted to plan something, I'd have to write it down as well. That'd mean I'd have a piece of paper with me, which means I'll hide behind it the whole time. That won't give a good picture, will it?

I have yet another presentation tomorrow. I'll have to talk about Stephen King's Misery. The teacher said I should mention about some higher symbolism and teachings. I really don't know what to say, I think I'll explain all kind of psychological phenomena that happened through the book.

It was a real good book and the teacher told me to actually try to sell the book. With such a good book that won't be hard.

As for me personally, I think I've gotten a grip. I'm not having that many mood shifts anymore and it's been almost a week since the last one.

Hopefully it'll stay this way. And somehow I feel like I mentioned about this before? In the blog before this one? No? I hope not.

I've completed my independent physics course! Now I only have to get through the test and I'll be done with it! I have a good feeling and I might be able to get an eight or a nine from it. I won't even wish for a ten since it would be unrealistic.

Tomorrow will be the last senior dance practice! I mean, we do have few more extra trainings, but this is it for the official ones!

I'm really going to miss the dance, I've started to like it very much. We always have so much fun! Except the one time that I felt down, thanks to a stupid thing that shouldn't have affected me in that way.

We're going to do everything better this last time and try to make our dance look cool! It'll be hard just because there are so many of us!

It was freeZING cold today! I had to freeze while waiting for the bus... THRICE! Can you believe that? I mean, I understand that it's cold, but geez, why can't the bussed come a bit earlier? :P

I didn't even remember to take me thick gloves, so me hands were dead-cold!

I'll put ten shirts on tomorrow and twelve pair of socks and five underwear!! That'll have to keep me warm.

M poke project failed. Simply because the maximum showed pokes on your home page is 20. So I can't get to 30. Sigh. It was fun till it lasted.

I haven't practiced the flute for a long long long time!!! My teacher's going to be mad at me tomorrow, but what can I say? I have been busy (for real this time) and I have forgotten it a few times. It's not hard, since I keep the flute in my room and hang out in the living room.

Guess that'll be all for today!

Just a warning:

Poke me!

Popopopoke me! I've got this new addiction on Facebook!

It's poking! I need to be poked and I love to collect pokes! Now at the moment I have 15 pokes added up. My goal is to have 30 of them at the same time!

I'm talking with my friend on MSN at the moment. About nothing more or less than the pretties girl I've ever seen.

It's not made up beauty, but natural beauty! She's perfect in every aspect. The way she walks, her hair, her skin, her face and her eyes!

Even her personality is so much different from the basic "I-think-I'm-pretty-so-I'm-effing-annoying-and-selfish".

This is enough of the matter since I don't want to sound like a stalker (which I'm not!!! seriously!!)

Today's been pretty much awesome. I've liked every moment even though I felt like nothing could get worse in the morning (and nothing did get worse, in fact, better all the way till now!).

I had fun in English class, Finnish and Literature was okay (I didn't get to present my book, but I wasn't ready to; and I almost finished my editorial), we had fun watching Markus on Biology class (Markus is the guy who teaches us things through funny videos!!) and had lots of fun dancing! I've started to really enjoy it.

The Finnish sketch series was really funny once again on Saturday!

Finnish XFactor wasn't that good. It was boring and it had a slow motion. They only showed like five auditions in the premiere! Annoying. They blabbered about the judges, who cares? I want to see the actual people!

My feelings are actually starting to become even again. Fortunately. I in a total outrage on Friday, for obvious reasons. Hopefully I'll keep the line straight and won't make it a parabola!

I've taken GaGa on my repertoire again. She still rocks my soul. A small break can be good sometimes.

I took some funny pictures of myself yesterday night! In the first one I shake my head and the picture was taken with a long timer value! This makes my head look weird, but funny. I modified the colors a bit and made it black and white. It's real classy.

The other is less classy and more scary! It's me as a zombie. My eyes blank (not photoshopped, but creepy natural if I want to), took the colors away and make it darker than normal.

I really liked both pictures. The first one has motion and the second one emotion. No pun intended.

Tomorrow I'm going to the gym and I'm going to have physical examination! I don't know what it will include, hopefully the basic stuff I've done at school. I hope being sick for a while and not going to the gym won't affect the results too much. Wish me luck!

On another note, I've written over 15 000 words in this blog in all. This means I don't have to write anything anymore. This might either mean I will start writing even more, or that I might start writing even less -

Damn phones ringing all the time!

- hopefully the latter option.

The exam week is approaching at an alarming speed! The first test will be on Friday, and I'm nervous since it's Finnish! I hate it!! It's about argumentations, theses and those stuff. I hope I don't screw up and that I get at least a 9 to not spoil my average!

Other than Finnish the exams should be just fine. Maths will be easy since I've take a grip and I understand, English should be easy as always (hah, still, I've never gotten a 10), physics should be okay since I think I understand and I'm doing it independently so a smaller grade won't bother me. Biology will hopefully go well, too, since I'll actually read for the test!

Now, I don't know what else to tell you. I'll see you some other day.

Oh. I got stood up today. I was supposed to talk to my friend on webcam. She said she'll brb, and I haven't heard from her since then.

Classy :P

I know she'll read this and feel guilty. Ha. If she feels anything, she's a cold, emotionless person (but I still luv her <3, GEEZ MY HTML-CODE EPIC-FAILED!!! YOU BETTER APPRECIATE THE HEART!!!;))

Buhbye darlings who read this! See you.

And to not leave you cold, watch this! Kinda funny. Fail blogs rule!

Floccinaucinihilipilification

I don't know how to start.

I think there's something going on over here in Finland. Why, you might ask. Because a lot of adolescents have gone missing.

The article I read tells about this girl from Ruovesi who went missing over a week ago.

She was last seen at her school from where she had left in middle of class.

Now they say she was found in a place they had searched before, just in a spot they hadn't gone through. I mean, why wouldn't they look the whole place instead of leaving an area out?

The police couldn't find her passport after she went missing, so they figured she would try to cross the borders.

However, now that they've found her (dead), I don't know whether they found the passport of not. There was no mention about it.

It seems it's not a crime but they are still going to perform an autopsy to find out the cause of death.

I really wish it was nothing more than just another teenager tired of her life. Because the other option would be that there are even more murderers out there.

My little brother is devious. He told my mom he was going to a friend of his (male), so my mother took him there.

Instead of wanting a ride all the way over, he wanted to stop at a day care center. My mom was a bit amazed by this but did as he suggested nevertheless.

After she got back home, my little brother's friend called her (he always calls someone, even me sometimes, if he can't get in touch with my brother) and my mom realized my brother wasn't at his friend's.

Guess where he was? At a (girl) friend! It seems that my brother didn't want to tell my mom he was going to see a girl. I don't know if that was because my mom would think he's "dating", or just because ...

Who am I kidding? There's no other option. Is my little brother dating? I hope not, he's way too young for that!

Other than that, I've got nothing else to share.

I've watched three TV programs today: Flash Forward, which was exciting and things are getting interesting; The Vampire Diaries, which just came back from a winter break and is culminating fast; and a Finnish soap opera episode I missed yesterday.

The next episode is coming in 10 mins (from the time of writing) and in it many characters will leave the show! I hope they don't overdo it.

I've also watched YouTuve videos of various kinds. Communitychannel had uploaded a video and I liked her as I usually do. It was about packing for trips and these weird money pockets some people use because they think their money is safe in them.

I watched Shane's two new videos. One was a collaboration with a YouTube singer. They went to a mall and asked people what they thought about near-death- dieted models. The other was a basic-Shane making a fool of himself (I like when he does that, it's kind of funny).

Hotforwords explained from where the word amour comes from. I wasn't really interested in that word but the video was funny.

I watched Charlieiscoollike's three or five day old video which I stumbled upon. I'd try to spot him so I could point at him and shout "I FOUND YA" and get a pin. But I live too far away.

Instead of staying in the comedy section, I jumped into science! I didn't plan it but the thumbnail was too interesting! The video was about making a magnetic liquid. When you put a magnet in contact with the liquid, it turned into something similar to a spiky shell. Then you could move it and touch it and it would be all the same. Really intriguing.

Oh yeah, let's not forget RayWilliamJohnson's video. It was about this kid that jumps into a merry-go-round that's in motion and gets swung out right away. Then this other kids laughs at her. LOL. Then there's this redheaded boy that everybody picks on because of his red hair. He angsts a lot about his life and well, RWJ makes fun of him (as he makes fun of everyone).

And I did all this while I was supposed to be studying physics, maths, biology and social studies.

I'll have to study tomorrow. And that'll mean I won't be able to see my friend! Even I had promised I would do my homework in time. Guess I'm just a hopeless case.

I remembered something worth mentioning. We went to watch a musical play with our Finnish class. It was called "The Year -85" and it was really good. I won't get more into the plot since it was pretty long and a lots of things happened. Basically, it's a love story that doesn't end well. It's filled with known and some less-known Finnish songs and lots of humor!

Too bad I seem to not be able to relax in the theater. It's the second time that my mind does something else than concentrating on the stage in this kind of event.

Before the play we went to eat to Rax with my friends! We ate a lot, talked a lot and had a lot of fun! Go us!

I'm hopefully going to have another interesting video conversation with a friend tonight. I hope it won't be as weird as the first time!

Now, go and confess your feelings! You know you'll regret if you don't.

Buhbye darlings.

I Am Weasel!

Oh my good. I'm excited!

We got the results from the Biology Olympics back! And guess what? I was the fourth best of our school! Which is really good if we take in count that I haven't even had all the courses!

I got 14 points out of 40. This is also good because the questions were really, really hard.

All of the questions had four options from which choose. Two were easy to rule out but then you had to figure out the right answer (no room for guessing, no pitypoints!).

Also, the questions were really weird. There was one that included sheep and belching. So go figure. There was really no way to know the answer! Geez.

Besides from that, I've got no good news.

I didn't do my social studies homework for today's class. Why? Because the teacher didn't say she gave homework! But apparently she had said so and surprise surprise I hadn't heard!

I'm dumb. So for tomorrow's homework, I've done a real good job. She can't whine now.

I also solved lots of mathematical problems! They were about derivatives of Euler's number and function composition! It's really fun, especially when you understand and when you're able to solve lots of them exercises :)

I hate maths class. I hate English class. I hate school diner. I hate dance.

Hm. That's it for today. I still need to count how many words these blogs have in total, so that I can write either longer blogs or keep going as I have.

I really hope it's the latter option.

Byebye, see you later!

Unlike usually, I won't give you a music video. Instead, you'll get this absurdly intriguing illusion!

Enjoy :)

Watch it, it won't take more than two minutes.

Rated, N

Today's blog will be once again a bit different than usually.

You'll get to read about a good album that I've bought.

Rihanna's Rated R.

I do not own any photographic material this blog might contain. I do not intend to break copyright laws.

Music samples linked to YouTube. I do not own the material and I am not responsible for any copyright infringements the video uploaders might be committing.

Rated R

Rihanna's newest CD album consists of 13 tracks. So far there have been two singles, Russian Roulette and Hard.

This album has a variety of musical styles. Even though the music is R&B and pop, the album contains traces of hip hop as well as rock.

Lyrically speaking, it could be said that Rihanna's lyrics have "grown up". She's no longer singing about partying and going out.

The lyrics can be a bit grim at some points and she doesn't refrain from using profanities. This is the reasons why there are two available versions of the album. The explicit and the censored version.

Most of the songs talk about love, lost and failed relationships. This could have something to do with her ex-boyfriend assaulting her, even though it's highly circumstantial. Any lyrics written for her after the abuse could point at it.

Rhythmically some of the songs (Mad House, G4L and Wait Your Turn) try out something new.

It's called dubstep. It's basically a genre of electronic music, which is used to bring dark and grim vibes to the songs. I won't go more into it since I don't really know how to explain it. I'll sound either too knowledgeable to be legit or it'll look like I've copied it from somewhere. I'll give you the Wikipedia link if you want to read more about it (it's actually kind of hard to understand, even for me, and I have studied music for years).

[LINK]

I thought of presenting one or two songs of the album. Then I started to think which I'd present and I came up with a problem. I couldn't decide. Guess I'll tell about each one of them.

The songs will be listed in the order they appear on the CD. Enjoy. I'll link you to each song so you can listen to it if you like.

1. Mad House 1:34

This song is like a small intro to the album. There isn't much lyrics. There's a man voice that warns that the material might be too much to handle for some and that he suggests to turn away now.

"To those of you,

Who think you can take it, we say

Welcome to the Mad House"

The rest of the song is Rihanna chanting "Come on, come on, come on in".

2. Wait Your Turn 3:46

This song is interesting. The beat is cool and the melody is catchy.

The lyrics could refer to a baseball game and as we well know, baseball has some sexual connotations. I would understand it that way; she's singing about waiting your turn. In love, in a baseball game. Especially the parts in which Rihanna chants "The wait is ovah" are really, really catchy. You almost have to sing along.

Oh, WYT is actually the only song in this album in which Rihanna herself has played a part in producing.

3. Hard 4:11

This song would be irony to her boyfriend's abuse. Maybe he thought he could bring her down? But naaah, she sees you aiming at her pedestal, so she think she's got to let you know... That she's hard.

Nothing will bring her down.

"And I want it all

It's gonna take more than that

Hope that I know you got"

This song features a pretty unknown name (at least for me) Jeezy. I thought he was Jay Z (I think I've mentioned it was Jay Z in one of my previous blogs, so I'm sorry for the misunderstanding) but it's not. The featuring artist is Jeezy.

4. Stupid in Love 4:01

Stupid in Love tells a story about a girl and a boy who have broken up. The girl still has hopes up for the relationship and gives the boy chances to make it up. But each time the boy ends up cheating and telling lies. Nothing works out and the girl ends up "stupid in love".

5. Rockstar 101 3:59

If nothing more, Rockstar 101 has a hell of a beat! It really blows your mind.

The lyrics aren't that great. As the name might hint, the song is about being a rockstar.

"Big city

Bright lights

Sleep all day

Up all night"

That's basically the song in a nutshell.

The song features the great legendary guitarist Slash!

6. Russian Roulette 3:49

This is the first song I heard from Rated R. I really liked it from the first listen on.

The plot has been a mystery for me and I haven't really figured it out yet.

This is probably one of the darkest and gloomiest songs in her album.

It tells the story about two people who are playing the Russian roulette and the thoughts that are going through the head of the protagonist.

The thing that bothers me is whether the protagonist dies or wins the game in the end.

7. Fire Bomb 4:18

If I had to choose a surpriser from this album, this would be it. I really didn't like this song when I heard it first. It was... somehow dull compared to the other song's beating and pounding rhymes.

However, now that I've heard it a few more times, it makes sense. It's a beautiful slow(ish) song.

I really don't get the lyrics though. Actually, I hadn't read them like "really" read them until today (since I had to recall what it said). I should spend some time decrypting it sometime.

8. Rude Boy 3:43

Lyric-wise I don't like this song at all. It's kinda, well, profane. And suggestive, if you look at it that way.

But the rhythm saves the song. I don't like liking Rude Boy, but I can't help it. It could be just that I want to like them all songs. Guess I could be blinding my sight and neglecting the suckyness of this song ;)

9. Photographs 4:46

My favorite number one! I started to like this song the moment I heard it. The lyrics are perfect, the melody is perfect, and the lack of a pounding rhythm in this case seals the deal.

All the proportions seem to be carefully thought of. I really like the song: it makes sense.

This one is a cooperation of will.i.am and Rihanna. will has written part of the song and he raps a strophe that completes the song. I just can't find a bad side to this beautiful piece of music :)

10. G4L 4:00

Gangster FOUR Life. It took me a while to understand why the song was called G4L. One time I heard her say it and it just popped to my head.

Guess I'm just dumb.

This one is awesome, the rhythm, to be exact. It's a good (I don't know, really, I just like to think it is) example of how dubstep can be used! The drums in the verses are enchanting.

"I lick the gun

When I’m done

Cause I know

That revenge is sweet

So sweet"

That part is God smackingly glorious, seriously. The last two words are like... a chromatic descend and I just have to love it! So the beginning and the end of this song are extraordinary!

11. Te Amo 3:28

Latin rhythm! Me likesss it! Te amo means "I love you", most of us know it. But the guy that is the protagonist of this song doesn't know that!

I'm really attracted to the plot of this song since I can't figure it out! This one is a mystery for me, going besides Russian Roulette.

"I said te amo,

would somebody tell me what she said?"

It's like the guy is undecided or then I missed something. I need to check it out someday. And I still don't know why Rihanna sings as a guy.

Without doubt a good one. And different from the other. Special, spectacular and delightful.

12. Cold Case Love 6:04

A sad love ballad. How can it get better? Well, this song is about cold case love. A love that's never been solved, that's how I think about it. The lyrics would seem to back me up.

I don't know what to tell about this song. It's really sentimental in an expressive way.

The rhythm is pretty basic, since it's a slow song. The melody goes pretty high at some points but it's splendid nevertheless.

Jesus that YouTube version is grotesque! You need to hear the real version!

13. The Last Song 4:16

Ironically, The Last Song is the last song! I know.

I think the lyrics compare the last song to love. I can't explain why I feel that way, I might be totally wrong.

This is the last song and therefore it's probably the slowest. Compared to the other songs it has less words and it's in other ways also a bit less complicated.

And that's just fine, it's like a soft landing. You don't want to break your neck falling, aye?

"But it's time to turn up

the last song

ooooo

The last song

ooooo"

Cut the Laces of Life

Hiyas!

You feeling fine today? I hope you are.

What to hear something funny? I've read my English grammar book today. From cover to back.

I don't think I learnt anything since things never stay in my head for too long.

What I did notice, though, is that I might be using way too much punctuation. I might have to go back to the earlier blogs and check them out.

After all, this is my English project!

Apart from being a nerd, I went to the gym today. I was feeling a bit sick (my nose started to ache) after doing some aerobic exercise so I decided to take it easy. I only ran 15mins, then did my anaerobic work out and left. Of course, I had to go to my gran's and eat pancakes after sporting. What could be better?

I might be going there tomorrow to make up the lost minutes. I thought of going for a jog nearby but I'd love to jog in company. I'll have to try and get someone to come with me.

Hmm. What else? Well, I did try to write some lyrics.

I thought they were good since well, I liked them. But then my mom read them... and said, nothing. Like she hadn't seen them at all. Sigh. I hate when she does that! It's so discouraging. It's been like that my whole life actually.

If I come home with a 9+ from a test, she would be like "Oh, that's okay".

Either she says something that can be thought as "this is shit, so I won't say anything to not hurt his feelings" or then she starts saying stuff like "hmm, if you could change this bit here... and then maybe edit that phrase there... and maybe use some more color over here."

I love hearing constructive criticism but I don't want to hear what I need to do in your opinion. That's not helping me, that's doing my job. Nonetheless, I don't need to be perfect. Average is okay, unless you rub it in my face.

I need to edit some pictures I've taken of the white nature that prevails out there.

I still don't know if I'm going to publish them anywhere. There are a few possible options but I'm not sure if they're good enough.

I think I might be catching the flu. My nose has been running for a few nights and my head is ... hefty... and stuffy. I hope I'm okay tomorrow because I don't want to miss a dance class.

Otherwise we may fall behind!

I took part of a contest whose price is a Nexus One or an equivalent amount of cash on PayPal.

I hope to win this contest since there's probably no other way I'd get a Nexus. Sigh.

How material am I? I just... like it!

Sigh. Stupid MSN.

My dad is probably coming home soon. At least that's what I infer from seeing my mom browsing in all kind of websites that sell tickets.

Hopefully he comes soon so that he can help with house chores.

And hopefully my sister comes to visit us soon. I think she'll come either before summer or in summer.

Now, farewell.

I've published this one on Facebook already but I feel like embedding it over here as well.

It's just so sweet and sounds funny. How very creative from the person who made this!

Studay

Today's been my studying day! Therefore Studay.

I woke up at 11am, ate breakfast and read the newspaper. Then I went into my room and basically stayed there till 7pm.

I only came out to take a shower and eat every now and then.

All I did was physics. I know it sounds ridiculous, but I just don't understand! It's like... half of the exercises are marked with a "?". Hopefully I'll get a notebook from a friend so I can get some help.

Either that or wait until Tuesday so that I can ask the teacher.

So, I thought I'd do something different today. Instead of writing long, I'm going to LIST long!

I'm going to give you the list of stuff I want to do before I die. It might not be complete, since I have never wrote everything down. Maybe I'll add things to it later.

Take in count that most of these are more or less meant to not be taken seriously :)

But don't forget that most of them are to be taken very seriously.

That doesn't make sense, but that's me. I should add, "Make sense" to the impossible section ;)

I've divided them into categories. Music, film, arts, writing, professional, cash, politics, travelling, relationships, school, random, being good, strikes and vain. Hope you enjoy!

I've struck over the ones I've completed. So far I haven't got that many, but hopefully the number of over struck goals will grow when years pass by!

Music industry

• Compose a song
• Be part of a band
• Film a music video
• Discover a star
• Be part of a success-story record label
• Perform in front of a live audience

Film industry

• Write a screenplay for a movie/TV show
• Act in a movie/TV show
• Direct a movie/TV show
• Produce a movie/TV show
• Take part in the Oscar Gala

Photography/painting

• Photographic masterpiece
• Sell a picture
• Publish 10, 50, 100, 500 pictures
• Have over 100, 500, 1000, 5000, 10 000 views
• Be liked/praised by a critic
• Paint a painting
• Be trained by a living legend
• Sign up for an art course

Authorship

• Write a short story
• Write a fantasy novel
• Write a fictional novel
• Write a detective story
• Get a longer book published
• Sell at least 10 copies
• Write a blog for one, two, three, four, five years

Professional

• Enter medical school
• Become a doctor
• Save a patient
• Do an operation (successfully)
• Be the head of a hospital
• Research a new medicine/vaccination
• Discover a new strain of a virus
• Work in a laboratory
• Invent something revolutionary

Ca$h

• Earn over 5000€ a month
• Have a total worth of over 100 000€
• Pay all debts (including mortgage)
• Burn a 500€ bill
• Invest in shares
• Receive over 1000 from dividends
• Donate to charity
• Buy an expensive painting
• Spend over 25 000 € in one shot

Politics

• Take up politics
• Find a party that suits the best
• Be a candidate in an election
• Get into the city government
• Get into the government
• Be an EU-parliamentarian
• Be the chairman
• Meet a politician
• Be important in a political party

Travelling/the big world

• Move out of the country
• Visit the USA
• Visit Hollywood
• Visit the UK
• Visit the Stonehenge
• Visit Australia
• Visit Uluru
• Go to a safari
• Experience a cultural shock
• Live in Spain for a while
• Fly in first class
• Fly in a private jet
• Sail a yacht
• Hop on a hot-air balloon!
• Conduct an airship
• Visit the moon
• Visit outer space
• Talk English for a year

Relationships

• Find a partner
• Get married
• Have a baby
• Be an uncle
• Be a grandparent
• Have lifelong friendships
• Go steady for one year
• Have good friends and love them

School/Contemporary

• Graduate
• Write an L from a subject
• Have an average of 9
• Get 10 from Biology
• Get 10 from Maths
• Get 10 from English
• Pass the independent Physics course fairly
• Be fame ;)
• Talk to everyone at least once
• Dance the dance of the old

Random/impossible/weirdo

• Learn telekinesis (move something at least 5cm)
• See the future (at least 10mins)
• Make a horoscope
• Stargaze
• Try spiritism
• Practice exorcism
• Vanquish a demon
• Become a vampire
• Slay a dragon
• Read someone's mind (at least once)
• Have a fake funeral
• Have a fake wedding

Being a GoodPerson

• Go to developing countries and help out
• Adopt a child
• Be a godfather to a disadvantaged child
• Take part to solving the climate exchange

Strikes etc.

• Be in a soda strike for one, two, three, four, five years
• Don't eat a burger for one, two, three, four months
• Desist from sweets for one, two, three, four weeks
• Refrain from the computer for one, two, three, four, five, six days, a week, two weeks

Vain

• See a celebrity
• Talk to a celebrity
• Shake hands with a celebrity
• BE a celebrity!
• Be on tabloids
• Own GaGa shoes!
• Make a YouTube video

After careful thinking, I've decided to show you this video!

It's just amazing how well it's been done. The amount of work put into this must've been crazy!

Pattern Goes On

Sorry to inform you, but I've got no sample for you yet.

I'll still do a small blog just to cover up my screw-ups. Which I just failed.

Anyway, I've got the tracks of the album planned up, but I'm not going to reveal the title of the album nor the track names.

Just because everything is possible till I close the first song. The title isn't satisfying me, but it's descriptive. And that's about all it is.

At this point it seems there will be eight tracks.

After the lyrics of each one of these songs, I'll try to give you a basic idea of the melody and rhythm. I'm no expert (been studying music for years, but really crappy at it) so I won't be able to record any, let alone write the music sheets!

It's just going to be me writing about the feeling of the song and the basic... well, idea.

Like I told you in the latest real blog, this album's tracks are going to be related.

The first song is going to start the story and the last one is going to end it. Each one represents a phase, none of which are locked. Like I've stated, anything can and lots of stuff probably will change.

And this is why I'm not going to give you the first song yet. I might start on Saturday so that it'll end on Sunday.

Now, good night. And I kept my promise. Kinda. I wrote a blog about this project, today! The day hasn't changed yet ;)

And this is a mess. I'll blame the sleepiness.

Heartless But Not Dead

Hello dear readers, I'm back!

Where did I go, you might ask. Well, I was supposed to take a small break to prepare my surprise... but as you might've noticed, I don't keep my promises.

This time it wasn't a matter of me being an idiot and doing it on purpose, I just got a little bit too excited and promised stuff that I couldn't have done, even if I'd had more time.

Instead, I'm going to do various other things that should be enough to compensate. For example, I'm going to show you few of the pictures I've taken that I've liked the most.

There's going to be a surprise that will last for the whole week, and I hope it's enough to make you forgive me. I'll not tell you what my original surprise was, just in case I want to make it happen later and surprise you! Sorry :)

We had a debate at school! Not like me and my friends started debating, but it was an assignment from our Finnish class. Briefly, me and four friends of mine formed a group and divided into two groups and a Spokesperson. The spokesperson was me, and my friends decided to debate on whether Formula One Racing should be banned. My opinion is "yes", but I'll not start debating it now cause I have other things to talk you about (and I shouldn't have an opinion since I was the spokesperson ;)).

The reason why I brought up this topic is because of the debate that took place after ours. It was about whether Finland should utilise death penalty as a method of punishment (for breaking the law).

The thing that surprised me was that when it was time to vote which side had won (= which was your personal opinion, basically) most people voted for "yes" to death penalty!!!

I was like, what the heck? How easily would they kill? We've spoken about this already, so no need to start debating this either, just wanted to let you know.

If you, however, want to ask/comment something, PLEASE leave a comment in the comment section below! I'd love to answer your questions and counter-argument your arguments! ;)

Now onto smaller things. First, I've taken the path of becoming heartless, cold, emotionless and hard. Mostly for the fun of it, we'll see how long till I give up.

Today it was easy, for I am made for this.

There's this song... and watch out! Cause it gives me THE chills and goosebumps! It's not from fear, it's more like a feeling of climax! It's really weird, I don't know why it happens.

It could be just that I love the series so when I hear the tune I get excited! But still, it's not my favorite TV show (but one of them) and none of the others does this same thing! So I'm stunned and happily surprised. I hope my heartlessness won't take that feeling away.

I just had to try whether it happens even if I won't watch the show, and it certainly did! Creepah!

Lemme know if same happens to you :)

Last thing, I've decided to try politics! I'm interested, because I like it. I like debating, I like having power (not one of the main reasons though), I like helping people (which I hope I would do if I ever get to a government position) and of course the publicity! Hopefully you'll get the option to vote for me one day ;)

Now, before the final zenith, I'm going to present you some of my greatest pictures!

At least in my opinion. Be gentle, do not troll >:|

First, I'll introduce you to Mr. DropShot! It was hard to do, and I had to edit it a bit afterwards. But just the color, everything else is legit.

Dropping into the Spring by ~Elv3 on deviantART

This one was taken of pure interest. I had no idea it'd turn out this cool. There are some minor things like the focus and composition, but nevertheless I like it. A lot.

Last Chance for Sunshine by ~Elv3 on deviantART

The last one is a conceptual capture that I planned beforehand. The idea is simple. Someone wrote "I loved you", to then trash it. That person might've thought that was enough, and it sure seems to have been made from a sudden rush of feelings. But what is the paper doing here, opened up, for everyone to read it? Was it really over? Could that person really forget what had happened?

Complications in Love by ~Elv3 on deviantART

Go check out the rest of my work if you're interested. Just follow the links in one of the pictures.

And that's it. No more for you, at least not today!

Let's move on to my little project. I'm going to write the words for an album.

I'll write the first lyrics to a separate blog, today. I hope you enjoy it, the idea came to me this pretty same day. I was walking to the gym when I got this idea: "why not make an album, the songs of which are related to eachother?". And that was enough to start my imagination!

Please do check it out. I'll link after I've gotten it done.

This song comes from my fried. She was like, "Oh my GOD, NIILO! Have you heard this song?! It totally rawks, you should listen to it!"

I was like, "Sure, just after I finish eating my burger." I didn't have a burger, just too tired to care.

"Oh MY god, Niilo, you HAVE to listen to it, it's soooooo cool and it's in Spanish!"

My interest shows a small hint of life, but then drops back dead. "Just a sec, I'll check it out later."

"NIIILO, I haven't even told you the song's name! You're not interested at all!"

Really? Now you figure? "Umm, give me the link, aye?"

"*friend gives link*"

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I didn't listen to it right then. I was bored and annoyed and I can't really remember why I didn't listen to it, but I didn't. It was days later. And I liked it! It's in Spanish, so I'm sorry you won't understand a thing. There is a version in which there's some English subtitles, but they're not the best possible. Side note: I found the subtitled version ;)

Surprise Is Coming!

I won't write long today. I'll tell you why only if you stay with me till the end (believe me, it's not going to be long).

I had put the wrong date on my planning sheet yesterday. It says "9.10", when it should be "9.01". It isn't that funny, but I had a laugh. I would have thought I confused the year, not the months.

I spent yesterday night watching videos of the history of words! There's this chick in YouTube who makes videos in which she explains the origins of words.

It's really interesting (to watch) to learn all these things I didn't know! You knew "mistletoe" comes from "dung stick"? Hah.

Hotforwords.

Do you guys have a list of things you want to do before you die?

Cause I sure do. Unfortunately it's not written down, so that's a new goal for me. Write down everything I want to do before I die! Then I can strike 'em over as I grow up and get more experience! I may share few later this week.

The show I was talking about yesterday was incredibly funny! :D

The people were just right and the stuff was so random! The improvised jokes were so stupid they were funny!

Definitely going to watch the next episodes as well!

The only bad side was that the program was a little bit too profane for children! That doesn't have to do anything with me (duh, why would you think that?) but it made me feel uncomfortable watching it with my little brothers.

'K, now to the surprise! I don't think I'm going to write another blog till my surprise! I'm actually so excited about it... and anxious to see how it turns out. I'm a little bit afraid it'll be a total flop, but I'm willing to take the risk. It's one point on my "to-do"- list!

I think I might be ready with the surprise on... Wednesday.

I still need to polish some uneven things regarding the surprise, but by Wednesday it should be in pretty good shape!

We'll see on Wednesday ;)

Where Dem Bloggers At?

"Freedom is what you do with what is done to you." - Jean-Paul Sartre.

My weekend is going to be pretty boring, I think. At least today I'm going to go watch a movie with a friend. My mood was ruined because everything I need happens to be at the other side of town.

Today, I did my homework and cleaned up the kitchen. Oh, and talked to my dad. It's his birthday today, so happy birthday dad over here as well!

He'll be coming back in two weeks, with everything regarding his new job done. At least this is what I hope. I wonder when he'll be heading to Sweden...

I told you I'm going to tell you about Google's new android phone, Nexus One.

Nexus One looks a bit like an iPhone. It's 119mm high, 59.8mm wide and 11.5mm deep. This means it's about as thick as a pencil! It weights no more than 130g with the batteries' weight included.

The touch sensitive screen is a bit bigger than the iPhone one, and many other functions are better mostly because of the more efficient processor.

One feature I really want to try is the voice recognition! You can talk to the phone, and the phone writes whatever you were saying. I don't know how this will work in the Finnish version (which I'll hopefully get), but it seems to work pretty flawless in the English version. When you say "smiley face", it makes a smiley face ;)

I don't know why, but the moment I saw it I knew I wanted one. Another good reason to get a job.

You know what? Heroes came back from the winter holidays! I'm so excited, season 4 is really good. At least so far I've liked the plot, even though it seems like it's not going anywhere. The characters are confused, and lead by the only ones who are not. Everyone's being played, but because there is more than one puppetmaster, they just end up confused.

Mistakes are fixed, not the best way possible. Mistakes are made, with even bigger consequences.

Is the bad guy really bad? Are the good ones pursuing truly a better view of the world?

I've also liked how they managed to introduce so many new faces into the show and actually taking importance from the main character. It sounds like a bad thing, but it is not that, not at all. I was getting pretty annoyed that the objective was to eliminate Sylar. They've changed this, but not completely. Brilliant.

Robert Knepper is doing a real good job at playing Samuel. At first I was sceptical that his role as T-Bag on Prison Break would ruin it all, but I was wrong. His presence turns around expectations and makes you forget he's ever played an ex-convict in an award-winning TV series!

Volume 5 of Season 4 is definitely Redemption.

I had this headache the whole yesterday. It wasn't a normal one, it was just in one spot and it came and went like it liked. Really annoying.

I haven't felt it yet, and I hope it's gone forever now.

Okay, lots of updates. I left my blog on since I had to go. But now I'm back.

No movie today, unfortunately. Why? Because I was stupid and wasn't prepared like I would've had to prepare.

We agreed that we should watch another movie some other day.

So basically I've done nothing interesting today, other than hear how stupid my English sounds. Why hasn't anyone told me I sound like an idiot? I guess it's cause I sound like an idiot anyway.

Sigh.

It's so strange. You think your voice is totally different than it really is. I had a good voice until I recorded it and hear it. Jesus, it's terrible :D

I'll learn sign language and that way I won't have to hear myself again.

I'm going to watch a new Finnish TV series. It's supposed to be improvised fun, and I hope it is.

Then I'll probably hang out on MSN for an hour or two. Depends if there's people or not.

Catch me there if you dare!

"Freedom is another word for nothing left to lose." - Unknown.

All I've Got Is Nothing Without U

Here we are again! Hiya.

I don't know what I should write for an introduction. I feel empty, dull and recycled. Lol. Did I just say "lol"? Dang, I'm seriously burned out.

In normal circumstances I would never ever lol so it seems this isn't a normal circumstance.

My friend had a pretty self-pity blog yesterday and frightened about its lolness I'll try not to do that (I know my friend knows, we talked about this, so no hard feelings, 'k?).

Just letting you know that this isn't the best possible blog there will be, unless my steel-hard-rotten feelings don't give my writing skills some kind of boost.

Yesterday, a new TV show started over here, in the place where hell froze over. The program is called FlashForward, and it's about this... future vision thingy.

Basically, in a nutshell, the whole population blacks out for two minutes 17 seconds. In this time everyone saw the future, a specific date and time of occurrence.

My friends were saying it's really exciting and addictive. IMO it's not that good really. Of course it is interesting but not really intriguing. What's the difference? I don't know, I just think there is. A difference, that is.

I'm still going to follow the show, since I have nothing better to do. Except studying. Or finding a job.

One of the factors that contribute to my grumpiness is this weird fatigue. My legs hurt for some odd reason. They've been hurting from since I went to the gym after a long pause on Wednesday. Guess the long pause had an impact, making my ... muscles adapt to the laziness and faineance of my being.

Actually I kinda like the feeling. Makes me feel like I've actually done something. Endorfins much? Hope so.

That didn't stop me from working out today, nah, whatya think? I did a full workout, even better; did more aerobic than usually. Sports kill sorrow. Or not, that just sounds funny.

Other thing that makes you feel good is fatty food. It's been researched, actually, that sweet food can be considered as a drug. It leaves its traces in your limbic system, and when you try to refrain from that food, your hypotalamus produces stress hormones. This is why being on a diet feels like the withdrawal symptoms of quitting smoking. The smallest piece of cake seems absurdly tempting.

Guess that's why I took a bite of some mint chocolate my mom left next to the computer. And that bite turned into two, and then those two bites of a single chocolate turned into ten eaten ones.

I'm eating everything I work out right back :D And my mom and brothers came home with a huge burger from Hesburger and french fries! Yummy!

Today, at school, I spoke up. Ha. I wish I had, I just had my impromtu speech. For those who don't know what that means, the teacher chose like 3 people to make an improvised speech. We chose a number from 1 to 74 and the teacher told us what our topic was. We had some time to prepare.

My subject was whether we should have more events and common feasts at our school. I said that it could lift our spirit, but on the other hand, there's only so many people interested in hosting such things. I said that if there were more events, it might become a bit repetitive and boring, since they'd always be the same people performing (even tho I'd love to hear Ms. GreatSinger, refer to earlier blogs).

I got no constructive criticisms, but I was told it was natural and ... I seemed to like it in front of the class. And why lie? I did like it. The adrenaline is stupefying, I love that feeling. If it even was adrenaline, whatever mindtricks it should be, love it regardless.

I signed up into some Biology Olympics. I doubt I'm going to make it, since it's about all the biology courses, when I've only had like 4. I'll still do it, just for the experience.

I wish there was an English one, I might even be able to compete against a brilliant genius friend of mine who's taking part of one abroad ;)

One of my newest addictions is Nexus One. It's a Google-made phone.

I soooooo effing want one. I would've written the ef-word, but since this is a school project (basically) I'm trying my best to keep it clean.

I'll tell ya more about NO in my next blog, since I feel this is becoming long.

My friend is psychic and I'm going to make sure I train her for the great future that awaits.

I'm in great pain, my friend, if You, who is causing this, read this, do something. Cause I'm not going to wait forever. I might wait just a bit longer, but that will be all I can take.

Release me, cause I did my time.

Of this cold case love.